Jennathevampire's Journals

I lost everything what makes me happy

I lost my father....I lost my dog.....I lost my home....I lost our car.....I lost our motorbike....I lost my whole f*cking life....
What could come at the near future? I can't imagine...

I lost my life

I'm sorry that it took a very long time to write again.
But the reason why i haven't writen is really serious: at 4th August i lost my father.
He had a tragical motorbike accident at the end of July and he didn't get well =(
I really miss him...i don't say that to anybody but i miss him...he was...he was the one who i loved wholeheartedly...

My and my mum and my dog have to move to my grandparents. I don't want that, but we have to do it...

I think, this is that point when I say: I hate my life.

Never grew up

Yesterday was my 18th birthday at 13th Friday. Awesome. *bring some champagnes and jet it*
I like 13th Fridays- these are my lucky days, too. I'm not overact.
There wasn't any celebrations, I just stay at home and have a rest, read the textmessages, e-mails, etc. what i got...The celebration will be next week when I going to go shopping some clothes and shoes, and yes: Hubert Selby's book 'Requiem For A Dream'. I can't wait. -.-
So, there wasn't anything specal....Ohhhh, wait. I got a really cool gift from my friend from the Mars: -merc-. If I'm not lazy i'll take pics. XD

In Hungary this age means I became adult. But what does it mean to me?...not much....
Everybody will say to me and want to grew up and do everything perfectly...but WTF...all of my life I've always tried to do the right things...i really don't know what they want...i just do the things in my own...isn't it enough?...

Anyway...i'm alone right now 'cause my parents travelled to Greece...pff, no....first, they go to Venice, Italy and by a ferry they sail to Corfu, Greece. Yep.
While they have rest I'll die in an oral exam. Hm...what a luck, isn't it?...

The last fights

It took a long time to write again a new blog entry. Sorry for it, but at the last few weeks I've been so busy.
In the one hand, I've already passed my first exam with flying colours. It wasn't hard and nobody failed, forutnately.
I'll still have two exams so I'm studying harder.

On the other hand, finally it had been offical: 30 Seconds To Mars won't give a show at Hungary.
I was a bit sad, but the fact they're working on the new album cheers me up.

See ya later
xoxo Jenna

This world is crying...

Look at these pics:

Aren't they lovely?
I think, they are.
Although a lot of people have the same opinion...
a lot kill them...

for money...
for profit...
for fun...
just for a stupid hobby...

and just a few people for eat, for their diet beacuse the seal's meat is almost the only one thing for them that
they can eat...

Yesterday I was watching the Tv when the riporter said the seal-hunting have started. And they show a really shocker vid about a little seal which tried to run away from a man who chase it...and finally he clubed it to death...

The question is that: do we differ from the animals?
Some times....i really don't know the answer...
....or....i'm not sure about that....

Unrequited love

Everybody know what a bad situation is this. For both people: who is in love and who is not.
Last week I was walking in the street at the evening with my dog when a cyclist passed me and said loudly 'What a cute dog I have'.
'Emm, thanks' replied and said a Hello for the boy. At the first time I couldn't recognise who was him because it was too dark in the street.
I thought he went away but he didn't: not so far there were a place with lot of trees where he turned off and came back where we were. I didn't want to talk with him beacuse later I realised I know him: he was the city's 'Poncer'..always asks everybody for different things such as fire to his cigarette or just a hankie...
He smiled at me and greeted me again and asked me a lot of stupid questions like 'Where do i live?' or 'Have I got a boyfriend?' etc...
If I wanted I gave answers but all I wanted was go away. Not so late he said he had to go, but he really hope we meet with each other AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
o.O (God, nooo......)
When he said stonger and louder the latest words I could die....

The best damn thing: he lives just one or two streets far from me.... NOOOO

Happy Birthday Shannon!!

Today is our lovely and adorable drummer's birthday,
so i and the hungarian Echelon want to wish him a very nice and peacefully day,
with a lot of: celebration
gifts
cakes
friends
& many more.

Happy Birthday dude!

Was it a dream?

The 30 Seconds To Mars show -what took place last year- was absolutely great!
I was really happy for see the guys.
After the gig me and -maybe- 20-25 Echelons were on a tight corridor at the backstage and waited for the band due to the Meet & Greet.
Not so late, Jared was the first who walked to the next room; the second was Shannon; and finally Tomo who smiled at us. He was soo lovely, in fact.
The dedication was irregular for me: there weren't any tables or chairs to help the guys. There was just a nice and big room, where the fans spoke with each other and/ or with the bandmates.
I was wondering about the whole thing when I realised I stood next to Shannon Leto! I caught his eyes and he smiled and greeted me on my real name. I just stared him with a tomfool face but suddenly he hugged me with one of his arms.
I'll never forgot the warm of his body. Never.
I was so happy but he whispered to my ear he had to go. Then he walked away but he turned back once again and gave me a beautiful smile. I wanted to go with him, but suddenly, Matt handed to me a piece of paper with Tomo's signature...

Wasn't it a really beautiful memory?
I guess, it is.
The only problem: it was only a dream.....a beautiful lie.....on a beautiful night...

When a band create a friendship

I've never thought this can happen with me..
really never...
the truth's that i've never thought about it....
really never...
It's a normal thing when a band have fans. More or less, it isn't essential.
But it isn't a common thing, when a band create a friendship...in my opinion...a really good friendship, to be more accurate.
For me, it was really unbelievable chatting with other fans in a forum's topic. I thought, i'm not that kind of man. But once i tried it...and it changed everything.
If I never heard about Fall Out Boy & 30 Seconds To Mars, I couldn't met with this great girl.
And i'm really pleased for it.
And proud of this friendship.
Now, i can believe the 30STM boys' statement about their fans: ECHELON is a really unique fan group.

Show time

Tomorrow night me and my class'll perform at Parents'-Teachers' Ball.
We have to play the show we learnt for Senior's Ball....brrr...but I won't....anyway, who want?
They ruin our Saturday night, man...pff
For reward, we'll got dinner...what a honour.....

So, keep your fingers crossed for us....